M: so what’s new with you?
me: i started working at UPMC shady side this week
me: and thats real exciting
me: i still need to fiure out where im living this summer and im running out of time
M: yeah…you should probably get on that
me: actually im feeling really behind in a lot of stuff
me: im a little confused in my faith right now too
M: really?
me: ya
me: its kinda hard to make it my own u know
me: im just so used to takeing what people say, rooling it over in my brain (like u would wine in ur mouth at a wine tasting) and then deciding weather its good or bad
M: uh huh
me: i feel like ive decided a lout of stuff and that makes it somewhat personal, but i feel like there’s a muscle i havent been exercising
me: hmm. . . i guesse you could say that my faith is pretty dependent
me: so its almost not my faith but like a faith collage
me: like its logical and it makes sence, but its not mine
me: and ive assembled it but . . . its lacking, well, its almost like its lacking me
me: elsewhere im pretty good
me: like i love who i am, im secure in who i am
me: but its kind of off kilter cause im all confused about my faith lol
me: make sence
M: it sort of makes sense
me: lol
me: so u can see why im confused
M: yeah
M: I can
me: did it surprised u that i said that?
M: yeah
me: y
me: out of curiosity
M: I wasn’t expecting to hear that
me: lol, ive gotten over pretending to be strong all the time
M: well I wouldn’t expect that, I just wasn’t expecting to hear that you were having faith issues
me: ya, issues lead to growth right, well hopefully. . .
M: yeah
me: u know the description of fait in dogma
me: where they are talking about the cup
me: and as u grow so does the cup
M: yeah, I think I know what you mean
me: well my cup is changing shape lol
M: OK
me: im changing shap
me: e
me: its so wierd
me: i like it!
me: lol
M: cool
me: hey buddy, i havent slept too much this week
me: i think im going to head out
me: but it was nice chatting with you
M: yeah…me too actually
me: sweet dreams i hope you get a little more unconfused
M: I’m working on it
me: good
M: have a good night and a Good Friday
me: thanks buddy
